Sunday, 5 March 2017


This is a really hard post to write, even though most of you will already know about this from Twitter and Instagram.

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Following on from my last post, Sahara never got to surgery to have the sarcoma removed. She had a bit of an off weekend, so I took her in to the clinic on the Monday. Blood results showed that she was in kidney failure. An ultrasound the next day showed that she also had massive pancreatitis. She was in hospital for four days, with a few small improvements, but on Friday the 17th of February she had a seizure. The chances of her recovering were almost hopeless, and I had to let her go.

My heart is broken.

I first met Sahara in May of 2003. She was 18 months old, and her then person was moving into a retirement village that didn't allow for cats. She needed someone to adopt her. I had to go and have a meeting and interview first. I drove from Sydney to the Blue Mountains, and was greeted by this sleek, little red cat with one eye, curiously watching me from underneath the car in the driveway. Obviously the meet and greet was judged a success, and I was deemed suitable, and the next day Sahara came to live with me and her new sisters (Gizmo was cool with it, Dim Sim was unimpressed).


Sahara was a force of nature. She was curious, intelligent and extremely enthusiastic about everything she did. She was always interested in people as well, and would come and say hello to everyone who visited. Often inserting herself onto a chair (or lap) at the table or the sofa.

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Just over four years ago, she was diagnosed with severe IBD, that ended up needing to be controlled with both corticosteroids and immunosuppressive drugs. She also developed arthritis in her elbows, which slowed her down and limited her play. But nothing ever limited her sweet little spirit. She still loved to be everywhere and with everyone. She was got the nickname 'Bear' because she loved to give big bear hugs, and enjoyed being held like this for what we called 'cuddle walks'. She made herself multiple beds in every room of the house, not just the actual cat beds we gave her, and I don't think there is a chair or a surface or a bed that she didn't make herself at home on at some point. If you left anything soft lying around, she would be on it. Oh yes, and she LOVED broccoli. She would steal it right off your plate if you weren't careful.

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The beginning of the end, she was diagnosed with lymphoma (a type of cancer) in her colon at the beginning of the year. She started chemo. She went into remission, however then got too sick in other ways. I just struggle to understand. The chemo was working, why couldn't that be that. Why all the other things? I guess I can't ever know, but I can't help but feel that I let her down somewhere along the way.

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So now it is just me and Dim Sim. Dim Sim is loving it, she has wanted to be an only cat for so long, and finally she can live her best life. As for me, I'm devastated. Also adrift. Sahara organised our days around her. She had several set feeding times, which she would remind you of like clockwork. She needed her meds. She would wake me up with a paw and a purr and a meow (and occasionally a love nip) before my alarm because she thought that it was time I was up and feeding her. The empty space she has left behind is huge.

I have so much more I feel I should say about her, words will never be enough.

Goodbye my sweet little bear. Thank you for loving me, and being mine, and letting me be yours.

Sahara Selfie

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  1. She was so beautiful. I don't know what to say other than I'm so sorry. Which means nothing, I know. Sending big hugs to you, and also Dim Sim who I'm sure is sad in her own way.

  2. Oh no, I'm so sorry Susan. Deepest sympathies to you <3

  3. This breaks my heart so much. Sahara was such a beautiful spirit, and I am moved by the life you shared together. Thank you for sharing Sahara's story, and big hugs to you.

  4. So many hugs to you, Susan. <3 Your words and photos of Sahara are a lovely tribute to her memory.

  5. What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful kitty. Sending big hugs to you and chin scratches to Dim Sim.❤️

  6. Vale Supercat. I am so privileged to have met her. Lovely kitty.

  7. What a gorgeous tribute to a super special kitty. Please don't feel bad, there's no way you let her down, you clearly gave her an amazing and happy life and I hope that I can do the same for a kitty one day.

  8. Sending lots of love to you Susan. You were there with her through this journey and you gave her an amazing life. This must be so hard to go through. I've been thinking of you and hoping you are ok xxx

  9. OMG I'm so very sorry! Sending you thoughts/prayers/hugs/positive vibes...during this most difficult time!

  10. "I can't help but feel that I let her down somewhere along the way."
    Please try not to feel that way. I imagine it's hard, it's easier to try and fault in things we've done when we lose a loved one, but you are the best cat mama ever. She lived a life so very full of love, you were both so lucky to have found each other. There is nothing I can say to take your pain away, just know I am here for you.

  11. Oh Susan, I am sooooo sorry! I'm just now getting caught up. It sounds like Sahara had an awesome life with you, and you did everything you could to make her happy and let her live each day to the fullest. Sending you hugs!